Well today I AM OFFICIALLY 28!
Literally a day like today I was born, Tuesday June
8th
Why do birthday's even matter?
This is a serious question. Yes, a day like today I was born
but I feel it meant more as a child then it does as an adult. I still enjoy myself;
I have drinks and spend it with friends and family. But this year was different.
For starters I am 2 years away from being 30, the big 3 - o. But the
celebration was different, I was thrown a surprise party. I never envisioned
myself with one, always saw it in movies and this was very real. So, my
roommates call to tell me the power was out, they tried resetting the breaker
and nothing. (Since COVID things have been financially difficult, and on top of
that my A/C had a leak and was spreading though the house. Last year this
happened, and I replaced my AC coil to ensure this wouldn't happen. Well, this
time, it was the drain line. On top of that my dryer was not drying clothes,
light switches stopped working) So on my birthday weekend when I was told there
was no power, I got emotional. And I was like why? Today out of all days? I got
sad and cried, but found the mental strength to find a solution and try to see
it on the bright side when there literally was light in sight. I never told my
friends that there was no power, I did not want them to worry. I could have
easily told everyone to not come over, but light or no light I just wanted to
be with the people I love. My friends and my family literally are the light of
my life.
My sister and I spent the whole day together having lunch
and getting my nails done. And around 8pm we are driving home, and the entire
time I am listening to Dominican songs related to no electricity. Literally
trying to laugh at the situation, because when it rains it pours. We arrived I
notice a candle in my roommates’ room and I felt so bad, but I had flashlights,
had TECO on their way addressing the power issue. When I get to my door, I see
my doorbell has power. So, I was like this is good, so only parts of the house are
without power! I open the door and something is around the door area I freaked out,
I wasn't sure if it was a prank or some voodoo that was hanging. I froze, then
I heard the A/C was on. I was like wait the A/C is on? And boom! Everyone came
out of nowhere and surprised me. My cousin, my aunt even my neighbor was there.
I cried because I was relieved to have electricity lol. Eventually I was able
to grasp everything that had happened. And I was able to be happy because they
were there to celebrate with me.
The highlight though if I am honest, was my
sister. We did not grow up together, we have our own views and experiences
growing up and that painted the background to the canvas we see today. As days
go by, we continue to make that work of art more beautiful and expressive. And
her and I have come a long way, but I feel for the first time in these last few months I felt truly connected with her. Before it was like she is related
to me and we are family. But now it's more of we are sisters. I
don’t feel so alone like I once did. It was always just me against the
world. But now there is someone next to me that truly cares about me. That is
there for me, and I did not want to believe it would happen the way it has,
because I did not meet her until I became 18. And this birthday marks 10 years.
An entire decade being sisters and learning what it's like having one. I did
not have a mother growing up, never had a father, never had my sister. I never
had anyone to lean to or call to about stuff. When you are young things are
more intensified, emotions, memories, pain, joy and love. But I learned to
stand up, and figure it out be strong to survive mentally. But it was cool when
I met my sister because If I am honest there is a reason why It all happened. I was not supposed to be born, everyone
told my mother to not have me because she was very sick, the doctors said it too that in having me it could jeopardize her life. But she was determined to have me and she called
me a victory when I was born, Una Victoria. But I feel I was born so my sister wouldn't be left alone in this world. So, we could have each
other. And as I learn what it means to be a sister and have one, we make
memories, we are learning every day from each other. While so much has happened in 10 years, I look forward
to the rest of my life in having a wonderful sister.
I think of family like a baseball field you
start in a home base, and you might leave to get to different bases, but at the
end of the day, the year or your life you are back to your home base. It
circles back around and you are there with family, the circle of life. Friends can change, Lovers
can change, but no one can change your parents or siblings, it's a bind.
So why do birthdays matter? In my opinion It's another year you live, every year is different not just the numbers, but as a person. It's a day where it's all about you as it was when you got to this world. It's an excuse or a reason to bring people together. And I feel it is a visual of how important or how much you mean to people. It's a day where you try to be positive about the fact you are getting old lol. Every year and every day I am also reminded of all the amazing friends and awesome roommates I have in my life.
For me every year is a Victory.
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