Thinking Of the Future, It is Deep.

So I am sitting here working on this poem that is ridiculous lol. It is nerdy, technical but romantic. I have been doing research all night to make sure what I put together makes sense. Anyways I am listening to a bunch of songs that help me flow with the writing. I am currently listening to : Love of a Lifetime by Firehouse . And I love that song like many others. And I am like his would actually be a great song for my wedding. No I am not getting married yet. I don't know exactly how I'd picture my future husband. But one things certain, he's got to be able to handle all my cheesiness lol. I have already the list of wedding songs lol, yea I know I'm crazy. But, a girl can dream! Aerosmith would have backed me up on this lol.

So for the wedding I want to play :

Dionne Warrick : This Girl's In Love With You
Firehouse: Love Of a lifetime
Cornelius Brothers & Sister Rose: Too late to Turn Back Now
Bread: I Want to Make It With You
Hamilton, Joe Frank & Reynolds: Falling In love
Nat King Cole: The very Thought Of you
Sammy Davis: The Good Life
Whitney Houston: You Give Good Love
Nat King Cole: L-O-V-E
Jack Jones: Time After Time
Chicago: Does Anyone Know What Time It Is?
Stephanie Mills: Never Knew Love Like This Before
Hall And Oates: You make my dreams Come true
Nat King Cole: Unforgettable

These are just some I want in the mix. I know it may seem soon but I have a lot of free times on my hands so I put things like this together.

Children:

You know I would like to have 3 kids. Initially it was 2 but I do want to adopt one child. Or I can have one child and one adopted. I do prefer boys, or that the boy is older to look out for the younger one. I have 2 male names in mind and one female. I am thinking Julian and Liam for the boys and the girl will be named Diana. Yes she will be a princess to me! I find girl names hard to decide. I am actually very grateful for my name because it is not too too common, like Ashely or Katie. And more importantly it means something. And it flows in Spanish and English. Liam not too much but it sounds really nice so.

House:

I actually want a home in Florida. I feel like Florida is a perfect state. It might just be because it is home. But it is warm, It is diverse it is beautiful. It is the Sunshine State! And that right there just makes it sound more amazing. I thought me seeing he world would want me to live somewhere else and I just don't see anything else. Boise Idaho was actually surprisingly beautiful and felt very comfortable very soon. I had more fun that I thought. But let's be real you never hear much from those places. Maybe they just do not want people to know? But the people are very friendly it is very green is was super awesome. I love going there.  Rome too was super awesome I loooove Italy. But I do not see myself living there forever. Maybe a year to help me learn Italian.

Cars:

I am basic I am totally cool with a Toyota Or a Honda Sedan. Now If I can dream The Audi R8 is badass. I think most Audi cars are sexy.

Job:

I may still be a Flight Attendant, I may not I really cannot predict that. But If I can do anything I would love to have a homeless shelter built and running it. It will be called Victoria's House. My homeless shelter will be one of a kind, but it does requires a lot of funding. I do believe this will not only help people off the streets but keep them off. It is about giving people the second chance.

In addition to Victoria's House: (It's about to get real) READ EVERYTHING!

Here's the thing, a lot of people treat homeless people like they are nothing. That it is their fault.
Who are we to judge? So just because we have a car and a job it makes us worth more than someone else? And have earned the right to humiliate someone and treat them like nothing because "economically" they have nothing? It is just cruel. Then people are like go get a job. Okay, great! Let them apply but how are they going to groom? Take a shower? They probably do not have a Social Security card or an ID at this point. And it tears my heart to see homeless people to be treated like trash, because they do not even get treated like animals. Because in today's era some animals get better treatment than the homeless. And I get that people feel it is "not their problem." And it is that mentality that will never allows people to see the truth. It is a problem weather you feel it is yours or not. I know you cannot save everyone's life, that you can't save the whole world. But damn just one life that you can change can save their world. But those values do not seem to matter to anyone, not as much anyways. So as you know I have been in Foster Care, and for those who do or do now know what happens once you are 18 years of age you age out of Foster Care. You are 18 you get kicked out of Foster Care If you are lucky and meet criteria you can find an independent living center. That will keep you there till you are about 21 and you have hopefully a degree and money saved up to be on your own. After 21 that is it. So let's rewind quickly. So once you are 18 you get kicked out of foster care? Yep. And what happens? Well chances are the family left them in the system by choice or no other family member was willing, able and or qualified to take the child. Remember I used to volunteer with the Guardian Ad Litem also knows as C.A.S.A. I represented children in court and worked closely with Case Managers and parents. But most importantly, I was the voice for the child. So there is this lovely document that parents can sign to say, hey you know what I am not in the mood to raise this kid I want to live my life. Then you have some that honestly can't help the child. So they have what is called a voluntary termination of parental rights and an involuntary termination of parental rights. Voluntary or not, point is the parent is no longer responsible for the child. Just like that now the state owns the child. Fast forward now the child has no family some family members stay in touch some don't. So now the child is 18. They walk out of there with no place to go. Then more than 70 percent of females get pregnant as they age out. Then they do not qualify for plenty of independent living centers.

That happened to my sister. So she did not qualify for independent living centers. She was living with another family in a foster home. Foster home is a family that takes you in and you live there for as long as they want. Yes as long as they want. After 2 years if they want you out they can put you back in foster care. Foster care is a home where several foster kids live. It is almost like a facility or a camp. You have different staff come around and work shifts to supervise you. Some are hell some are just okay. The hell is when you are locked in the house unless you are going to school or everyone leaves in a group to go some place. That was my experience. To make matters worse none of the staff were nice. When I was a baby I was fortunate to be adopted by my aunt at 1 year and 4 months. But when I was 13 years old, I was taken out of my aunt's house into Foster Care. So I never met my sister till I was 18 we had talked here and there. My brother was 18 when our mother passed away. Still till today he brings it up. He has never and will never let go of the past. It really affected him. So at 18 I formally met them both. The foster home My sister was with pretty much used her to get the bonus cash they get to "help" a child. But they were the closest parents that my sister had. She told me stories how they would make her eat outside, they treated her literally like an outsider. But I do not want to share things that are too personal for her. But no one likes to be in foster care, so nothing is ever said. We're just kids. My sister has been through a lot, a lot more than me. She has 4 children and she is only 30, the oldest is 11. But despite her past she has really worked hard to be the best. Never made an excuse for things. She got a bachelors in Criminal Justice and is committed to work hard, to do the right thing and to make things right. But in a away having the kids helped her because she met the baby's father and was able to get a home and get things together that way. But That shouldn't be the only reason females should have kids. Not every story ends up that way.

So anyways it is a big cycle of things that happen. So at this point they age out and might find a girlfriend or a boyfriend, they might get married, they might have a kid, they might do crimes, they might get into prostitution. Or they are lucky and some relative reached out. Or they might not do any of that and end up homeless. The odds are not in their favor. So let's talk about the ones that end up homeless, or they break up with their significant other. They ask for money to try and eat and people ignore them and they say the one thing I hear all they time "It is their fault, they choose to be there." Oh, really? No one chooses to be born. No one chooses to be abandoned, No one chooses to be in the system. And certainly after all that end up homeless, embarrassed and hurt. No one chose that.

You have soldiers that fought their lives for this damn country. And they might have PTSD and might turn to alcohol and pain killers. And then they're family may walk away. Then they are asking for help because they fell off the edge and need to get themselves back, get their families back. But no they are treated like nothing! You can't spare a dollar for a homeless person but you can throw hundreds on strippers and booze and clubs. But I get it is your money, you do as you wish. But I suggest you start thinking twice how you treat people. That can be you one day, the future is unwritten. You better hope there is a happy ending somewhere in there. Because without fail, everything that goes around comes around.

And that is why I want to create Victoria's House, mi casa tu casa. So many good people that can help this world are not given the opportunity. I feel in my heart I was given a purpose and I will do all I can to make it possible. I'm a Victoria, It is my destiny.