Why Do We Show People Old Pictures Of When We Were In Better Shape?

So my Roommate is a Fit Junkie. She does Yoga, lifts weights counts calories, she looks great for 42. She only eats once a day though, I like spreading my food throughout the day. Well anyhow, since I became unemployed in December I started gaining weight again. I want to say it got really bad in training, especially since I had to go twice. I was sitting for 10-11 hours 6 days a week. Eating sandwiches that they provided for lunch, buying hotel food. I never made time to work out because I just wanted to study. Thus, I grained 20-25 pounds. It doesn't look like it is that much but definitely noticeable I gained a bit. This is the second time it has happened. The first time was when I started working in a call center. So I was basically complaining that my clothes were getting harder to fit in, things do not look as nice on me and I feel I have no shape.

So I showed her pictures of me before training even in March and April I felt I looked elegant. She then asked me why is it that people are always showing pictures of how they looked when they were skinny or in better shape? And she went on to it does not mater of how you used to look like, it is not how you are now. That if we miss it so much then lose weight. And she is right on every level, more than I care to admit. I could not find the right words to answer, so I told her give me a second to organize my thoughts and lay it out. Here is the answer  from my prospective, maybe some of you feel the same way:

I know I do not like the way I look at all. I acknowledge this and determined I need to do something about it. But quite frankly there is a lack of motivation. I am interested to lose weight but not really motivated. In my mind I feel that it is going to be hard and I have to make time for it. I know what you are thinking, then shut up. But I am just trying to answer this because she does not understand why. I am not even really sure I understand why..





So when I think about it when I show those pictures it is me telling people I was once beautiful, I did not always look like this. In the back of my mind it shows people what I have the potential to look like. I used to ride the bike 3 to 4 times a week. For 13-20 miles. I know people can do more but I was cool with that. Plus I used to dance as cardio. I posted some on Google Plus, but that was then. This was all this year

                   This was when I gained weight the first time. I look somewhat like this again.

This is me like right now, 10:40 pm Nov 19th 2015.  I took these pictures to post them. Sorry I was working out before this so I look a bit run down lol.





Yeah, it is not pretty. I am confident that I can lose the weight. After her and I had the talk I mean I just needed a reminder. I lost weight once I can do it again. I kept putting it off tomorrow, or the day after. I knew I was making excuses because I wanted to ignore the problem. But I know I do not want to buy a bigger size in clothes. I can't conform or keep pretending it is okay. I just felt in my mind I did not know where to start, but we all have to start somewhere if we want to get somewhere. "The Journey of a thousand miles begins with one step." - Lao Tzu

So today I started working out to lose all the weight I gained. I kept thinking there is no way around this. I have always worked hard to get the things I want. This is not any different. Just think of a moment that you had to do something really hard, and you succeeded. It could be college, weight loss in the past, high school, a training, or your first home. And use that as the motivation you need. You did those things before that felt impossible and difficult, but you made them possible. There comes a point when you have to stop looking at the pictures and look in the mirror and accept it. We can take pictures in angles that make us look slim use aps that shed pounds and boosts the boobs or the butt. But the only person we fool is ourselves. We try so hard to be appear what we are not, yet we know we have control to appear exactly how we want to be seen. But we keep putting it off, hoping for something to happen. And nothing is the only thing that will happen. So here is my before and I am going to get this done. There will be heat and burn but I know I will wake up tomorrow on flames, I will be hot because of it lol. I will keep you all posted.

Note to you: If you are one of those people like I that love showing those pictures of how you used to be like I. If you took a picture of you now as your true self, would you be embarrassed to show it? If so, we show that picture everywhere we go. It doesn't have to be captured with a phone. There is nothing more real than flesh and bones. Only YOU have control of your body. We can't blame and point fingers. Yeah it happened, but what are you going to do to change it if you miss the old you?

The only thing stopping you, is you. #RealityChecked